What's the hardest thing someone has to face? Can't think of anything? I'll tell you! Not being able to trust someone you've trusted all your life. Not being able to trust the person, who not only is responsible for your life but responsible for every little happiness in it.
The person who is so important in your life that even the smallest thing he does affects you and even the smallest thing you do, affects him.
And it gets worse when you don't even understand what's going on in his head, you don't understand his intentions, don't understand his motives, his thought process. Nothing.
And this gets worse, when even when you make an effort to communicate, he refuses to communicate back. Or is it that, you have no idea how to communicate with this person?
You just run out of things to say. No matter how hard you make an attempt to reach him, you fail again and again. And he keeps getting further and further away from you when all you're trying to do is reach him, running towards him with all your strength. Trying to make him understand what's happening and how disillusioned he is.
All you want is, the best for him. But he refuses to see it. And blames you. BLAMES YOU! He not only refuses to see this but also chooses all the wrong people as his friends. He keeps getting closer to all the wrong people who don't give a damn about him and keeps running away from the people who genuinely care about him. Keeps blaming them, keeps making them wrong, keeps getting angry at them, even cursing them, ignoring them, avoiding them, Keeps hurting them. Keeps HURTING the PEOPLE YOU LOVE, keeps hurting the people HE'S supposed to love and care about!
What do you do then? Ideally, I won't spend a minute thinking about this person twice. I would start not giving shit too. But, what if you just can't stop loving this person. You just can't stop caring about him. What do you do? What do you do?
The person who is so important in your life that even the smallest thing he does affects you and even the smallest thing you do, affects him.
And it gets worse when you don't even understand what's going on in his head, you don't understand his intentions, don't understand his motives, his thought process. Nothing.
And this gets worse, when even when you make an effort to communicate, he refuses to communicate back. Or is it that, you have no idea how to communicate with this person?
You just run out of things to say. No matter how hard you make an attempt to reach him, you fail again and again. And he keeps getting further and further away from you when all you're trying to do is reach him, running towards him with all your strength. Trying to make him understand what's happening and how disillusioned he is.
All you want is, the best for him. But he refuses to see it. And blames you. BLAMES YOU! He not only refuses to see this but also chooses all the wrong people as his friends. He keeps getting closer to all the wrong people who don't give a damn about him and keeps running away from the people who genuinely care about him. Keeps blaming them, keeps making them wrong, keeps getting angry at them, even cursing them, ignoring them, avoiding them, Keeps hurting them. Keeps HURTING the PEOPLE YOU LOVE, keeps hurting the people HE'S supposed to love and care about!
What do you do then? Ideally, I won't spend a minute thinking about this person twice. I would start not giving shit too. But, what if you just can't stop loving this person. You just can't stop caring about him. What do you do? What do you do?
2 comments:
What do you do?? simple.. u blog :P:P
I find the answer is already written in this sentence -
"...the people HE'S supposed to love and care about!..."
I think that accepting the simple fact that, 'No one should decide what anybody else is supposed to do or feel' is a way to getting some closure.
Just accepting that the other person has to live out his own life as is his right - good way or bad way, loving good people or bad, befriending what's good or what's bad for them.
You simply cannot own others because you love them...):
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